BLAHdy stomach.......

My stomach been hurting for almost a month now. thank god i manage to survive the mock exams. bloody lousy stomach i have....in addition to that i started having fever in the morning and the evening..i find it quite interesting because it's sort of timed..i have fever at around 10 in the morning and 6 to 7 in the evening..sometimes it will last for the whole night...weird right?....

i went to see three doctors and they conclude that i am too stressed...=.=...

i even had a blood test and a ultrasound to check if it w

as anything serious. In the end, it was just stress..

But seriously, i don't even feel stressed. at least not as much as compared to before. my friends tell me that it might be "internal stress", they say i might have stress without even realizing it..could that actually happen?...gosh..it's hard enough having to study with the stomach ache going on, and now i have to worry about a stress that i don't even know existed...

Just the other day, i was sitting in my room and like

an old person, i thought about my busy life for the last few years. my weeks were so packed with tuition and curricular activities, but they all seem to breeze by. i had no problem going to practice for 4 hours and going straight to tuition. sometimes the performances even lasted for one whole day and i had no problem with that. but now, i can barely get myself to go to a 2-hour tuition. am i getting old that fast?

then it struck me that it could be because i've stop going to the my chinese orchestra practices. maybe for almost 7 years that was my place to release my stress. it was where i was happy, where i could talk to my friends, a place that i could enjoy music. A place where i belonged..i really miss those days..but even if i could go now, i don think i have the energy to..lols..i sound so bloody old...=.=

well, i really can't do anything now. i just have to forget about the pain and go on studying. hopefully it is really stress related and when spm is over, so will the pain. if not, i cannot imagine how am i going to survive NS...T.T...everyone says that it's a really fun experience..but i'm just worried i might humiliate myself...haha...

anyway, good luck to all my friends in spm! =)

my ultrasound results~

i find them really cool though..hahaha...