randomness......

i just suddenly felt the urge to post up something on my blog...
seeing that it's DEAD..for months already..
tomorrow's National Day..not that it affects me in any way though.haha..
this means that my short one-week holiday is about to be over..
so what did i do this whole week?
well, i practically slept, not that i wanted to, i didn't have the energy to get up..
all my holiday plan..ahh..ruin..crap..
i was sick..this time i was sick for like 5, 6 days, crap man, it has been so long since i have gotten so sick..haha..

i have this feeling inside..it's not something i usually feel..
this feeling is just different in many ways..it's really hard to describe..
you see, since exam started, i feel like i am going through a change..
i just hope i'm changing for the better..but who knows..i have a bad feeling about this..
now during the holidays, this change is like even more protruding until its presence is rather annoying..
i really have no idea what's going on...
i'm just losing interest in everything...
i'm just being a totally different person...
i'm afraid my friends might avoid me...
i think something's wrong with me...or am i just thinking too much?
or is this the after effect of being sick for too long?..
who knows..who knows...
i hope when school reopens, i'm going back to normal..
i think i'm about to go insane..but whatever..
i feel better now..
crap this life of mine..i'm going to bed..
haha..